It's been a slow year for releases. Why? All summed up here.
Yes I'm still alive. I know, I'm disappointed too but don't take off your party hat just yet. It's that time of year again, and what a god damn year it's been. Let's get right to the point first;
Reboot Season One, Episode 26: Tales of Voyager
Reboot Season One, Episode 27: Too Good To Be Q
"Too Q" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One".
The usual pages for episode releases have been updated: Episode Release Log & Sizes Ranking, Coming Soon.
FAQs on the home page and the main reboot page have been tweaked slightly.
Episode Archive has a new section, Originals. At the moment only Caretaker, Season Three version of the Monkey Island episodes, The Games Matrix, B4FV2/Season Four oldies are there. Season One will join them after the next two reboot episodes complete the season, again. Hopefully that won't be too long away.
I wasn't particularly eager to already give up the backup episode I finished in September. However I thought because October and most of November wasn't very productive, and that made me fall behind yet again on my Season One plans, the only person releasing it early harms is me. Besides, Too Good To Be Q is IMO a fun little romp that shows that I was getting better before crap hit the fan, or rather water hit the laptop, in October.
Whining aside for now*, I feel I need to update you on what's been going on. First you should probably know my original plan(s) this year was to finish off Reboot Season One, and that was still true even after losing the first few months to personal rubbish. It was going to be close, but I really thought I had a chance of still doing this back in September. Then the laptop incident happened and things have once more spiralled downward in pure 2017 fashion. Before the incident(s) the plan was basically; Tales of Voyager (October/early November), Too Good To Be Q and Live Games (4th December), Finale (New Years Eve). That was do-able then, especially since Tales was roughly halfway and "Too Q"'s reboot was finished already.
So what's going to happen now? Normally December is a quiet month, mainly because it's the busiest time of the year at work. However I've got the not ending Season One failure hanging over my head. With two episodes to go it ain't happening, but that doesn't mean I can't get one more done. It also doesn't mean I will though, ahem. To sum up I have no idea. Honestly what happens next will be determined by how well my week off from work goes. I'm in dire need of a rest and a good time. I already have plans tomorrow which should help. The rest of the week, who knows. VTV Live/Voyager's Drinking Game would be a fitting episode to finish the year with, so I'm thinking about it. I have to try not to beat myself up if I don't, otherwise 2018 won't get off to the best start either.
For now, it's the 17th anniversary of the series and the 5th anniversary of the revival. I'm going to celebrate that at least, twice as much since I skipped last year's. I'm definitely going to toast that tomorrow, should be a good day. It better be.
*If you're not in the know about why I've been in a writing slump this year, and you don't want to read my ramblings (can't say I blame you) regarding some of them. Summing up in no particular order;
+ the laptop that made it possible to revive the series five years ago was destroyed by an idiot leaving a tap on in a clogged sink above my office over a whole weekend, even the harddrive didn't survive.
+ Why yes I do have another computer and I keep backups, but that computer also had a nearmiss a few days earlier and could go again at anytime since the fix was to chuck very old parts from the previous PC into it.
+ Dementia sufferer + said sufferer already angry selfish idiot + living in same house = abuse situation for months, resolved by someone only believing me when he threatened to kill me in front of said someone. Now lives in care home after 1 month stint in mental hospital. I now live on my own in a house which still is in his name because well, they want to put him in a less old folks home and of course they're not kicking him out till they find one, BUT they think if his name is taken off the tenancy he'd be classed as homeless. Meanwhile my name is not on any tenancy, so by their logic aren't they keeping me "homeless" until they sort it out? Whut? Oh yeah I love living with the fear of being evicted. Almost as much as soggy laptops and offices.
+ Because of above, before the move, I myself spent most of my Easter week off visiting a mental hospital, I was put on suicide watch, used anti depressants but they made me ill enough to pass out and go to regular hospital, had the police involved where I was told basically I was too weak/delicate (yes I knew this but wow), and had two counsellors at the same time after the situation was dealt with which helped nothing.
+ Haven't had time off work for six months.
+ I'm doing other people's work because I'm apparently the fastest typist and have nothing better to do. Yes November is the BESTEST time to get me to type up mountains of crap into a spreadsheet. Why yes I can also cover for yet another department for 4 weeks, I have no life after all. yay.
+ I'm still in the same office that was flooded. The incident was the 9th October, I'm writing this on the 27th November, and it's still not been fixed. No ceiling tiles, I can see all the wiring and the shoddy concrete of the first floor's floor etc... it still stinks of flood water, or it's probably mould and/or the never been washed since floor. Ceiling tiles should be replaced tomorrow, painting should be started when this update pops up but I won't know, cos I won't be there (yay). The smell is the worst part about it, I think it's making me ill. Which brings me to...
+ I've had a variety of health issues over the last two months, probably made worse because I've stressed myself out. Ear infection, sinusitis/sinus headaches (I'm hoping the two are related, then they'll sod off together), chest pain and coughing which I'm really hoping isn't related to the mouldy office, got over a cold and it only came back within 2 weeks. There's a few others but I'm not eager to share those.
+ The reason I didn't have any time off for 6 months was I had been saving my last week (and had 3 days booked off this week for, well this) so I could spend time with my sister, who lives in another country, as she wanted to come home. Strung me along for months only to cancel 1 week before the flight. Since the days off I had booked in were a muddled mess due to cover and flight times, and two were originally someone elses days off which I begged for, they were all cancelled when I was already feeling at my lowest. So you can add thoughtless and/or selfish sister to the list of family woes...
+ Miscellaneous other family drama which wouldn't have been so bad if it weren't happening during all of the above.
I'll be glad when this year is over, let me tell you. I have to say this has been one of the worst years of my life. As it's too current I think it's too soon to say if it tops the 2002/3 era or if it's merely tied. Time will tell. I think it has good odds though if you're a betting person. Bring on 2018.
#Note# As warned last time, it's probably best to skim the 9th October entry.
I'm more or less back up and running with a secondhand laptop. I'm still though without a place to use it. I'm hoping it'll be sorted sometime this week. I don't know when though I'll be back in the spirit of things. The last two weeks have been rough after all. Normally I'd look at an episode with as much done as Tales, note how many days are left, and be confident-ish that I can release it by month's end. After everything I'm really not sure.
#Note# Before I start, it's probably best to skim the 9th October entry below so you have an idea what I'm waffling about. Maybe.
It's been a week, so I figured I'd post an update on what's happening. Unfortunately it's very little. The laptop, which I used to use to write the majority of the series, is definitely gone. It won't turn on and even the hard drive isn't responding when I hook it up to other PC's. I looked into getting a new one but I talked myself out of it, since I couldn't stomach the idea of lugging around a roughly £400 brand new laptop to work and back (and I definitely didn't like the idea of leaving it there). Work won't help me out, except for selling off their used ones and despite the fact that this was their fault, still make me wait and bid with everyone else who likely don't want 'em and haven't had their laptops ruined by their incompetence, cos that's only fair right (no). So I'm not sure on the laptop front whether I'll get a used one from work or a much cheaper, lower spec new machine that I'm not as fussed about.
It still doesn't matter too much since I still have no office to use it in. It'd be sitting around at home until I do, so no hurry really. I've been told it could be next week. I've been scribbling down an odd few scenes in notebooks whenever I'm in the mood, which is quite rare.
Also I'm having some family troubles yet again, which I honestly don't understand. That's good cos I won't feel that I have to bore you with it. It's just another thing that's getting in the way of me getting anything done.
As I've probably whined already, I'm very upset and angry about this whole thing. I was catching up and was confident about getting Reboot Season One finished by year end, but now, nope I doubt it.
For the time being, let's have some content I doubt anyone cares about ;)
"Prepare For Trouble" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One".
Over the last few days there's been a couple of disasters, all of which relating to this site. First, my home PC's power supply died on Thursday. Fortunately I horde old electricals so I still had my old tower from like 2012, so I was able to use that one's. The computer's working for now, thankfully... Secondly, today my work was flooded and typically my office was one of few seriously affected. Ceiling cave in, water everywhere, the works. My laptop was sitting more or less directly underneath the first tile(s) that fell. I spent a lot of my day trying to dry it and my tears, as that thing has been an excellent reliable PC since 2006. I fully expected it to die soon yeah, but not like this. I haven't a clue if it has died, as I think it needs more time to dry out before I dare to test it. I likely won't, since it would've been plugged into an on wall socket when the flood happened. A wall socket that had been ripped from the wall, in a building which had its electrics shorted out numerous times. Gee wonder why?
So all in all, I'm not feeling too optimistic. I feel terrible in fact. I know it's daft to get upset over a computer. I can't help it though. If it wasn't for it I wouldn't have gotten back into my work here, as having a laptop allowed me to bring my work to work during my very long, unproductive days. It's kept me going through tough times and has been through it all. Ironically I doubt I would've still been in that job without it. It's painful, especially when it's last few months it had been cracked by being bundled into a drawer for "safe" keeping every night and so lately I had been keeping it on top of my desk, again I stress for safe keeping. If I hadn't done that, then it would've been safe and dry in the drawer. But hey, I had no way of knowing.
I knew I'd ramble on. Sorry. The issue is I do a lot of my writing at work with the laptop, and so I'm extremely concerned that I'll fall behind once more. At least with my home PC behaving for now, my work's safely backed up on two USB drives. I'm not sure if I'll ever dare to try and boot up the laptop, or just accept it as gone and find a replacement. Either way, it'll be a while before things are normal again. It's just one thing after another in this stupid year of my annoying life.
Coming Soon - Tales of Voyager's progress up until Friday added.
"Memories of Fury" has been edited. There was quite a few mistakes within, more than I usually find. I'm not surprised since it was written out of order and the last few scenes were done quite quickly since my bad back was whining about being on the computer. It wasn't only the usual typos and missing/extra words I do when typing too quickly, I'm reporting this because there were a few plot errors. Nothing major, the biggest was how many seats were left in the Conference Room scene, again because the three scene sequence was done out of order and expanded on once they were put together.
Episode Sizes and Release Log have been updated with Memories of Fury.
Coming Soon... you know the routine.
The Reboot section has been completely revamped. I started off with updating Season One's entry on the main page until I realised there was little point in having it at all, since I made the separate pages for all the seasons since setting it up like that. Then I realised again that the whole page was done back in the beginning of said reboot and is in desperate need of a spring cleaning. So here we are. A fresh new page with new info to have a peep in, if you're that bored.
I've kept the separate season pages for Two, Three and B4FV1. One still has one as well, but has been formatted (again) since it shouldn't be in use next year (for very long).
Reboot Season One, Episode 25: Memories of Fury
Hurray, I have an episode in the backup folder again. Now that's done, I'm ready to continue the next episode. For now;
Coming Soon has been updated.
Episode Sizes has been updated with World Domination and the new backup's numbers.
"World Domination" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One".
It's been a while, mainly due to forgetfulness mixed in with a bit of "I'd prefer to do Re-Reads"-ism, but the Episode Trivia page for Reboot Season One has been updated a bit.
I had a feeling my Coming Soon percentage estimate of World Domination was too high. It turned out far longer than I expected. The size difference between parts is ridiculous, if I'd known I would've put many more scenes that were already ready into Part 1.
Never mind, it is done and the original can (continue to) be avoided forever. 'Tis a great day.
Thankfully I've gotten a head start on the next two Reboot Season One entries. However I won't let my guard down and assume that because of this they'll be released quicker than usual. I've been disappointed many times before. The next episode will be the replacement for Prepare For Trouble, which is technically a newbie but still has the burden of following Prepare's basic point. After that is Tales of Voyager, which is the final Monkey Island parody I started five years ago in an attempt to revive the series. Although I have written more since then, it's still been a while since I touched on it and its predecessors; Secret of the Revenge and Escape From The Curse. So yeah I'm cautious of both of my head starts.
Reboot Season One, Episode 24: World Domination (Parts 2 & 3)
Coming Soon has been updated.
I promised myself that I'd never do this, but I am my own worst enemy;
Reboot Season One, Episode 24: World Domination (Part 1)
Coming Soon has been updated.
I did start off pretty well this month. I was wasting time less, being in the writing spirit on a lot of the days. I even fancied starting off the next episode and even then I only did it when I felt I hit a snag in World Domination. Then it was only a couple of days "wasted". Sure I could've been quicker, on the flip side though I've definitely been slower this year so... Yeah I considered August a good month. Problem ended up being that I've been busy trying to deal with/fix my home which wiped me out, putting it mildly. One week was wasted on that. I didn't realise how close to the end of the month I was until this weekend, and panic set in.
Now don't get me wrong. I haven't released everything I've done, slapped a "to be continued" and preyed Part 2 will be at least as long like the "good old days". Nope. The episode is actually almost finished. I basically thought the best way to do this was find the halfway point of what I've already done and find a scene around it I was okay with ending it on. Also the following scene has to be ok to begin with, but hey, my priorities when dividing up two parters are always leaning towards "which scene's a good temporary ending?" even if multiple parters are almost always released together anyway, ahem.
So why have I done this then? I have my reasons, all of them are pretty much self inflicted so feel free to judge.
For starters I badly wanted to replace the original. I whined on and on that Hunters was the thee worst episode of all time, even when I knew it wasn't really true and purposefully used it as a running gag/private joke. However World Domination does deserve that title, even with Aggressions Part 2 and original Muse as strong contenders. I could say "I don't need to explain, just look at it" but I'd like to think I'm not that cruel. It basically represents my biggest gripe with Season One, but then again it represents a majority of them; the fourth wall writers rubbish. World Domination was initially written long before the first episode was, along with Timeline, as just an ok AU episode where Voyager face off against an enemy they met maybe once before (or only heard of, once before). When it was eventually typed up from the draft, it pretty much wasn't and the tale was spun into some "Voyager goes into the real world, ohnoes the villain wants to destroy FV from its source" mess. Yeah. I hate it. I couldn't even read it, and I suffered through Aggressions Part 2 last year.
The Reboot basically brings the old draft's intention back. Whether it was any good or not, it didn't matter, it would replace the original online version and that was desperately needed. True the original episodes after it aren't great, but I can rest a little better knowing that new readers following the Reboot won't eventually stumble on that turd once they run out of modern era episodes.
Secondly, I have this thing where if I don't release an episode every month, I deem myself an utter failure, mainly because I've fallen so far behind this year with all my personal baggage taking up almost half of it. This month especially because I did start off pretty well, but I completely ignore that the "pretty well" included working on the following episode too.
Thirdly, yeah the few months of nothing's still plaguing my mind. I estimated at the end of last year that I'd reach Season Two by the anniversary in December, which I think still could be do-able what with the next few entries being already started or short (in theory) reboots of oldies. This isn't the same as the secondly point, as this is less to do with "any old episode will do as long as it's monthly at most", but more to do with the fact that I'm still on Season One and it bothers me. If I fall into September still doing World Domination, I might start to slack off and make it the only episode in September. Yes my mindset is screwed up at the moment, I'm working on it. Releasing a Part 1 gives me some pressure to finish, though Games Matrix Part 5 is a good example of that not always working. It shouldn't happen since WD is near its end, but you never know.
Fourthly, a lot of the time (especially this year) when I've approached my self imposed which probably no one else cares about deadlines, I've gone without sleep so to finish things off in time. Diminished Fifth left me with only two hours to sleep, which I didn't do cos it takes me that long to fall asleep, a day before a stock check at work. That was fun, but yeah self inflicted. Upendi did this too, the pressure was on with that one considering it was the first in so many months. It's not a new habit, I did this with the Season Five finale last year. Last night I almost did this again, but managed to talk myself out of it since I had little left to do and one day left. I was worried though I'd do it again tonight since I have little time thanks to my coming home late on Thursdays, there's a chance I still could. Doing this should in theory make me less worried, and give myself a break. I hope. We'll see.
I did mention I'm my worst enemy, right? Of course I did. I really doubt anyone else would be fussed that the WD reboot appeared on a 1st September instead of 31st August. It's one day, it makes little difference. I wish I could convince myself of that.
Coming Soon has been updated.
Work on the next Reboot Season One episode is slow, which is odd because you'd think I'd be super SUPER eager to replace the infamous World Domination. I keep telling myself that its only criteria are: be better than the original (not exactly a high bar!) and make an ickle bit of sense. However I think in the back of my head I want it to be half decent, I don't wanna replace a confusing ridiculous piece of s*** with a bigger one.
And then again, part of my mind is telling the making excuses part; hurry the hell up, Season One is so close to the end. Disconnected needs fixing. Dimension Jump needs scrubbed off the face of the net. I HAD A RELEASE ORDER PLAN AND EVERYTHING, sheesh! Of course I (should) know better than to share what that plan was, when I've had so much luck sticking to them in the past. You only have to look at the Games Matrix mess for a recent example of my jinxing ofself.
But anyway, enough blab, update time.
Coming Soon has been updated with World Domination's progress. Memories of Fury's episode number's been fixed. I know I was tired when I updated the page last but pfft, ep 27 before 26? lol.
History: I updated the Episode Sizes page apparently on the 1st, but forgot to upload it. It'd been done now.
The episode "Interactions" had some edits done to it a few weeks back. A few problem scenes were edited down. It's not the first time this particular episode's had this done to it. Hopefully it'll be the last... until it's rebooted, ha
I briefly talked myself out of it and then back again; I've skipped "Too Q" in favour of "Fear" for the "Marill Re-Reads Season One" page. Why? Muse In Fear Haven basically. I have to accept that I'll eventually get to a point where I'll be like 20 Re-Reads ahead of my Reboot position (at least for now I'm stuck on a difficult for me episode I don't want to go back to, so it could be a while yet!), but for now I'd like to not release one for an episode not yet rebooted. That means Too Q will probably not show up till near the end of the year, but hey, I think it's the only real problem here.
It's okay, they're only silly reviews no one reads and I haz a plan. Planned release order hidden in easily seen still dark colours just in case I skimp as always; Reboot World Domination, Re-Reads WD (yes I did it, kinda), Memories of Fury, Re-Reads Prepare For Trouble, Tales of Voyager, Reboot Too Q (Too Good To Be A Q), Re-Reads Too Q, Reboot Voyager Live, Re-Reads VTV Live and Voyager's Drinking Game, Reboot Thrown Key Part 1 (Resistance Is Futile), Re-Reads Thrown Key Part 1. Yes I have to miss out a review for a bit, then its easily made up later with the Drinking Game/VTV merge which I'm still thinking about renaming.
Also in the Re-Reads I've had to edit the Year of Hell one since it had jokes about my recent problems that were painful to read a year later after it was written.
It's over half a year late. True with my story in the "26th July" entry below that's understandable, but I still feel pretty crappy about it. It's not surprising to me only that once I pushed past a certain part of the story, I blew through the rest of it in a single night, easy peasy. Oh well. It's done now.
Reboot Season Three, Episode 17: Diminished Fifth
Coming Soon has been updated.
History: Episode Log has been updated. The word count/size page will be updated at a later time. I finished the episode pretty late, and honestly I'm bedbound after this is uploaded.
The Reboot section has been updated, as well as the Season Three section.
Coming Soon has been updated.
"Fair Haven 2" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One".
Will someone please tell me where July went? Please.
I think it's time to explain a few things to any regulars (hello if you exist) about this pretty uneventful year, for the site anyway. I honestly hate that I've fallen so behind, especially with how well I was doing the last few years. I usually go on and on, hopefully I don't do that here. Maybe I can explain what's been wrong that'll make sense without writing a novel I can't publish. Who knows. If it starts to get long, I'll move in to my rambling page.
SO, here goes.
Up until late April this year I've been living in a fairly abusive, fear ridden environment. My father has been suffering from dementia the last few years, escalating rapidly from November. Note he was a violent, forgetful, lying narcissist even in his healthy days, so imagine before November that most of his symptoms were early-FV style exaggerations of his actual self. Things truly started to get worse round about the time of the 4th December anniversary, which should give you an idea as to why I not only didn't celebrate it, I released an episode without the usual fanfare, let alone an anniversary one. The other episode planned for it is still unreleased nearly 8 months later.
From here you may think I'm saying far too much. I've reached the point where I don't really care who knows what I endured, or lack of. It feels "freeing" to say it actually. Okay. Before I get to the "good stuff", I'll give you an idea of the home environment I had late 2016, early this year. I had bolts on my living room and bedroom door fitted. That should give you a general picture. These bolts didn't help. They only made him more threatening, it flared his temper so much more. Plot twist; during a night terror I yanked open my bedroom door despite it being locked, the thing came right off the door, they wouldn't have helped AT ALL.
I spent New Years Day hiding in the living room, crying and alone, until his shouting made me run out the back door and walk into town when it was snowing and freezing.
Another day in I believe March, not sure, on a Sunday he accused me of stealing his keys (again) and locking him in the house. Threatened to break the door down. Once again, I ran out the back door in my pyjamas since it was still early. He then found his keys just as I was running off and gave chase. Summing this one up it ended up with me in a police station making a statement and spending a few days in hiding.
Got a letter from my landlords threatening court action and possible eviction due to arrears of just under £600. Be aware, this man loved to be in control of everything and yet didn't like paying bills. I paid him my share via a cheque, it was all he would take. Direct debits baffled him even in his good years. Add a forgetful disease to the mix and you get why this happened. The argument was when I knew, his threats were real and my fear of him was justified. If we weren't outside in full view of our neighbours, I really think he would have punched me.
Then Easter rolled around. It's no longer a holiday to me. It'll always be a reminder of the hell. The social worker in charge of our case decided to ignore both of our pleas for a nursing home, and instead chucked in four carers a day. Both of us felt imprisoned in our own home. We both hated the idea. This was the last straw for him. It was my fault, of course. He told every carer in his booming voice he thought I couldn't hear that I was abusing him. He'd be sunshine and rainbows with them. When they were gone he'd be complaining about them, hating me for it, even threatening to knock them out.
I tried to kill myself. Several times.
I was on anti-depressants for months which I never got used to. They put me in hospital once, I thought I was having a heart attack but it was anxiety. I stopped taking them cold turkey after the night I passed out and hit my head.
When I told the doctor about the suicide attempts, I wanted help after all, I was assigned a crisis team. Two days of my holidays were spent in a mental hospital. Not in the haha padded room malarkey, but in counselling sessions. Then they visited me at home, only to witness my dad "finally" staying true to his word and threatening the next carer who came, even though they weren't for him. I've seen two counsellors, two at the same time. Only one now.
The beginning of the end of this story; the crisis team arranged a meeting with the social worker, who victim blamed me most of the time "if he's so bad, why are you still living with him?" she says to someone who at the time had applied for 15 houses, seen 3 etc... When I got home I couldn't find my bread to make dinner for work the next day, he caught me looking for it, mumbling about not having any food. Next thing I know a coffee jar is flying across the kitchen and he's screaming at me. I hide in the living room again, sobbing, listening to him accuse me once more of abuse.
I haven't seen him since. That was 3 months ago.
For the next day he apparently left the house in a rage, was spotted by the social worker going to visit him about the meeting with me. My own father, wanted to kill me. Kill me, then kill himself. If I were not at work I wouldn't be here now. I don't doubt that he meant it. Everyone who knows him believe he would've carried it out.
One month in a mental institution, then moved to a nursing home at last.
I have my freedom and safety but it's come at a price. I have insomnia and when I do sleep I have nightmares/terrors. I'm on edge all the time. I'm exhausted 24/7.
So, there you have it. That's my 2017 story so far. I imagine no one cares but me that only a couple of episodes have been released this year, or is it three? I guess explaining this to you will help ease my anxiety over it. Just a tad. Anyway, I hope that all made some sense. There has been ickle progress on the writing front since the last update, so... check out Coming Soon. I intend to have an update by the end of the month. At this rate it may just be a Re-Reads but hey.
Coming Soon has been updated.
Muse has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One".
The History section's been updated, specifically; Episode Size Rankings and Episode Log.
Reboot Season One, Episode 23: Muse In Fear Haven
Progress report only today. My writing focus has been all over the place, which is a bit of an issue when my writing moods are scarce and brief. Nutshell; I've been working on three episodes mostly at the same time. Coming Soon has the progress percentages, here I'll chat about them;
Muse In Fear Haven: The order of this episode's been changed around so much I've lost track. So many different files have been made for it so I can rearrange. It's a mess to say the least. I THINK I've gotten every scene I've edited/written but one into a single file in a preferred order, and that one's a WIP anyway, but you never know. This one's probably the one that'll be finished first, hopefully soon now that everything should be in one file. Muse wise I've only a few scenes left, Fair Haven 2's only got one little scene to edit in, and Fear's the one with a majority still to do. Thankfully out of the three Fear's the one that's only an edit job. Muse is a fresh start and Fair Haven 2's been mostly rewritten so far.
World Domination: I've written quite a bit of this but in the spirit of its original original, it's only a draft in a notebook. I hope this isn't a bad omen. It's difficult to say how far through it I am since it's all new, only the barebones concept of the original's draft.
Games Matrix Part 5 - Diminished Fifth: Good god, I dunno why this one's causing me so much grief. I hit a certain point in the story where some characters basically ask "what happened?" and it's not like they're exposition heavy scenes, it's more of a show not tell situation... which is 95% already written. So I really dunno why I'm having such difficulty getting past them. After that the episode should break free. So yeah the progress of this hasn't moved much, the difference here is like Muse, the order's been switched around a bit, which exactly like that has created scene extensions.
It's been far too many months of mainly downs, but finally there's a new episode. I did say that any Season One entries would be chucked straight into the backup folder and not released until I finished something else, however it's been far too long to worry about securing a safety net right now. I need to get back into the swing of things before I can do that. I probably will explain the situation that has ruined this year, and December of last, eventually but right now things are still uncertain. I must say though that at the time of writing this (hopefully no more than a week before the date of the update) that I had been worrying about getting this episode right as it's a sensitive subject which its original truly botched, even more so in the last few years. I do want to talk about it, but it could get long (what else is new).
First, Ill get the updates out of the way.
Reboot Season One, Episode 22: Upendi
Coming Soon has been updated.
It seemed only fitting; Upendi has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One". This is the other reason why I uploaded two reviews last time. I thought about timing the rest of the rereads with their reboot but Muse is next and that's been combined with two others, and not in the correct order. So I might do this with the ones that'll be rebooted alone (that leaves only Too Q, World Dom..lol, and Thrown Key). At the very least Upendi had to be the one to have its review released on the same day of its reboot, not only as a comparison but because even though I expected awfulness for only Part 1, it shocked me to the core. Anyhow.
The History section's been updated, specifically; Episode Size Rankings and Episode Log.
Banners for Muse In Fear Haven and World Domination have been created. You'll find them on the homepage.
Upendi was the final Season One episode, uploaded back in June 2001. Its point was at first to be a FV version, also known as a ripoff and/or parody, of the Lion King sequel Simba's Pride. A few things in that struck a chord with me, mainly the fact that the villains, exiled by the new king, were designed to be not only uglier but darker than their non-exiled counterparts. These mostly women were exiled for their actions and so IMO shouldn't have been so drastically different, except for maybe being thinner due to starvation. It got me thinking that I should change Upendi so it wasn't some silly parody, focus on that instead of exiled for siding with the ex-king, instead make it a "simple" tale of racism and my thoughts on the matter.
When I checked out the episode a few months back for its ReRead review I was shocked that the story I thought it told wasn't there, and it not only missed the mark but it looked like it wasn't even trying to hit it. It was a bit shocking to say the least. However as mentioned it was written a long time ago. I'm looking at it now with a different perspective, many different ones in fact. I'm older and wiser (though I'm still an idiot so it doesn't mean that much), I've seen a lot since and I've had my eyes opened many times. Which made rebooting this episode a big challenge for me.
I did not want to mess this up again. I wanted to tell the story I'm so very sure I intended to do back in 2001. I know that racism baffled me back then, but clearly I was still part of the problem with my ignorance (and judging by 3/4 of Upendi, my mindless typing away while hyper habit). Plus as it's not mid 2001 anymore there's an added pressure to make sure that in the process of telling that same story I don't offend. I mean yeah, my views on racism hasn't changed so the basics aren't the issue there. Putting it simply without hopefully spoiling too much (though if you know the original it should spoil nothing); the story does still have the oppressed aliens driven to the point that they're willing to attack ships and hold people hostage, solely at the whims of a leader who's far too angry to reason with. I'm concerned that people will see it as me saying "see, they're violent!" when that's not meant to be the point. Sure original Upendi did absolutely nothing to convince you otherwise of that, but I hope the reboot doesn't get to the end with people still thinking it.
I know I'm probably talking to myself and that's okay, I think I'm okay with it (I'm used to it lol), but I would not like for this version of Upendi to be an awful racist and sexist mess dirtying up Season One and the site for sixteen years just like its original. If I've mucked up I want to know. So yeah if you have an opinion on its message or anything, please feel free to contact me in the forums. Unless you disagree entirely with Upendi's intended point, in that case you might like the original and I'd probably not want to hear from you. Harsh but I've enough hate and horror in my life without having it in my own forum.
Okay, I'm not going to beat around the bush here. This year has been an absolute nightmare. Too much has happened to me especially in the last couple of months, suffice to say it's a bloody wonder I'm still around to even do this update. Make of that what you will. Because of everything I haven't been able to concentrate, and the rare moments where I have been in the mood to do some writing, my confidence is shot down by myself or something else happens. Right now I have no idea if the recent event will go in my favour or make matters even worse (if it does, unless I do something to save myself this could be a final update), but until I find that out I have some space and time to try and heal. A lot of people would likely advise me that trying to write while crap's still ongoing isn't the best idea, and normally I'd agree and that's why the site's been mostly inactive the last few months, but my falling behind is also contributing to the s$$$storm that is my existence at the moment.
If I don't try and catch up on my work it'll only get worse, as I'll get used to not writing the longer I don't do it. That is exactly what happened years ago and I really don't want that to happen again. I've tried my best but I'm not too confident. I really thought Reboot Season One would be finished this year, but what with everything that's happened (or not in FV's case) it'd be a miracle if I still did. Until things are settled, the backup system I've been using for years has been rescinded. I badly want episodes releasing. Until I'm confident that I can release something quickly after securing a backup, it's not worth doing.
Anyhow enough said, time for what's actually new:
Coming Soon has been updated with Upendi and at a stretch Diminished Fifth's progress.
"Fugitives" and "Dark Frontier" have been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One". I know chucking two reviews online instead of one doesn't make up for the lack of updates, but it's a start :(
"Interactions" has had some edits made to it to tide it over until its reboot.
Slowly but surely (I think) I'm getting better. Life's so chaotic at the moment I'm afraid, writing is difficult. Instead I've been faffing about trying to get the site useable on mobile devices, and improve the look of the full version. I think there's still some work to be done. I'm hoping though that I can get back to normal as I'm falling behind on my plans.
As mentioned, a newish site design has been launched. The changes include:
The full version now uses images for its main menu like the mobile version does, I figured it would be easier to use and makes the site look a lot better.
The full version also has its own Episode Archive frame and menu like the mobile site.
The mobile version's menus have been tidied up so they look better and don't take up as much room as before, making it hopefully more suitable for anyone viewing the site on portrait. I tried to make a suitable design that'd be better for people holding their phones upright, neither tested well. Menus seemed to shrink, even the most minimalist of ones. Feedback and many tests showed the current version works better for some reason.
A few pages like Coming Soon, the Reboot episode lists have been redesigned to hopefully fit mobile devices better.
Coming Soon has been updated with the little progress made with Muse In Fear Haven.
History's "Website Designs" has been updated with the older version of this design.
The Characters page has been updated ever so slightly, nothing major.
"The Voyager Conspiracy" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One". If I hadn't done it already accidentally, Test of Time's stats have also been updated now that the reviews have caught up.
Okay I'm still ill. The medication I was given to help gave me far too many side effects, I even ended up in hospital from them. I think I am getting better, and I hope that the two appointments tomorrow and Wednesday will give me some light at the end of the tunnel. There could easily be a train coming through it, but hey I need to be optimistic.
Worrying about the lack of updates even when I know I shouldn't, isn't helping. So I'll be unleashing what's in my backup folder to tide things over for now. I really didn't want to do it, but I feel this is the only way to ease one of my many worries while I try to focus on getting better. This is why the backup system exists, I just hope it doesn't set me back too much.
Reboot B4FV Season One, Episode 01: Caretaker Parts 6, 7 & 8
I've tried my best to clean up the Episode Archive so it's a little less confusing with all the reboots. My main concern though was making it more mobile (tablet/phone) friendly and so removing the tiny text. Unfortunately the site's still best viewed (or useable) on landscape. Since portrait's probably more common with phones it's an issue. If you've got any suggestions and whatnot for not just the Episode Archive's design but the whole mobile version of the site, please let me know in the usual haunts.
Coming Soon has barely been updated.
The usual History pages are up to date: Release Log and Size Rankings.
"Spirits" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One".
Now my biggest issue with using a backup episode is replacing it. Two years ago I had difficulty replacing Worse Case Scenario 2 and ended up picking an easier but much later episode (Piece of Conspiracy), which really defeated the point of having a backup as I couldn't release it until the season had caught up. This time I won't let it be any later than Muse In Fear Haven, since that's had far more done than the next episode Upendi. It could be either of them. Diminished Fifth on the other hand should've been a 4th December episode and I want that up as soon as I've finished with it.
I can't seem to shake off this illness, either that or I keep catching a new flu virus once the old one starts to go away. I know it takes me a while to get going at the beginning of the year, but I'm still worried. I've written very little, it's tough to concentrate. All I feel the need to do is curl up on the sofa and mindlessly button mash a video game.
Coming Soon has the basic numbers for the little progress made, however I feel I need to go into a tad bit of detail:
Games Matrix Part 5/Diminished Fifth: Should be roughly half way through. I've been mostly jotting it down in a notebook so it'll need typing (the Coming Soon number will not be accurate as it measures file size). I know from the notebook material that the dialogue is a bit stiff(er) when exposition is being uttered, and that's probably why my interest/concentration has faded. It's a shame, the episode's fine, the plot's a-ok, everything fits into place. All GM5 needed to do was follow 2 episodes of ReBoot's plot, unlike the last three parts which generally needed to work around 4. It should be easy once I'm myself again. Then again...
Muse In Fear Haven: Whilst at work I couldn't sit on the sofa and play games, so to keep myself occupied I read through Season One. I've finished the re-reads now. It did convince me not to worry about rebooting Season One as episodes like Muse, Prepare For Trouble and even Thrown Key are crap anyway, I know I can do better... when I'm not ill anyway. Anyway I ended up jumping straight into this episode despite the next one being Upendi. Typically that was when Cold/Flu Number 3 started to rear its head and I only got as far as finishing the opening and merging a few Muse/Fair Haven scenes. It's got more than Upendi so it's SOMETHING.
The episode's more than ready to go and in theory shouldn't take long. Muse itself needs rewriting, no doubt there. Fear isn't actually that bad for a S1 entry, it needs editing like they all do. It should fit in with the others fine. Fair Haven 2 is nothing more than a subplot episode IMO, it'll work fine as exactly that with the Muse/Fear combo as the main story. Fair Haven also needs redoing in places, not to the extremes as Muse though. Good god was that terrible.
Upendi: Before I impulsively dove into Muse In Fear Haven I was considering delaying Games Matrix 5 for Upendi. The plan would mean the next episode to be released would actually be the current back up Caretaker Parts 6-8. Upendi itself would be the new backup. GM5 later would go up immediately once finished as this saga was meant to be done in November, worst case scenario 4th December *eye roll*. However all I've done of Upendi so far is a few lines and quite a lot of notes. The biggest issue with Upendi is I've stupidly got two basic story structures in my head for it. One being the original, the other is re-ordered to suit a gimmick. A gimmick I've done before. It doesn't matter either way, Upendi's biggest problem is the original really, REALLY failed at its intended point. Look at the synopsis on the homepage. None of that happens in the original, I thought it basically did. A lot of Upendi is unusable and you know what that means, more scenes written from scratch.
I'm honestly not sure which episode will be touched next. I want to do all three honestly. I'm tired though, very tired and I have to be frank here; my living arrangements, my work life, all of it is utter crap right now. Yeah my illness(es) are currently the forefront issue fogging my ickle brain, but I think it needed to be fogged after the crap that was all of December and New Year. Just a theory mind you. I could be talking nonsense, what else is new. Hopefully the next update will be good and not too far away.
Quick update today. I haven't had much luck lately, when I was finally starting to recover from my latest depression attack I caught the cold. No biggie, except that turned into the flu over the last week. I haven't slept more than a few hours since Tuesday, medication's made my brain far more foggy than usual. At least there's one positive thing about it, with my temperature spiking usually up I haven't been cold, and last week was supposedly freezing. Wouldn't have noticed if it were not for the snow and ice on the ground. I do miss lying down in a comfy bed and sleeping, I'd gladly take feeling cold again if I can do that again soon.
But anyway, point is writing's out. I know from the stupid re-reads I picked to do to pass time away at work, there's very little energy in the last few.
I hope recovery is soon as I felt very inspired to finish the final Games Matrix, as well as work on Upendi. Again you can thank the re-reads for the latter, yikes! I'm very eager to replace the latter half of Season One after my re-read spree. However today it's minor updates ahoy
"Timeline" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One". Warning; it's long and rant heavy. It isn't the longest one though, just wait till you see Upendi's.
I've revised the Reboot page itself, I keep forgetting to do it everytime there's a new release.
Reboot Season One's listings has also been up to date thanks to the reviews giving me an idea what I need to do.
Hey anyone, I hope this new year is treating you well so far. As you may or may not know I've been having a hard time since late November, and so my work's been heavily affected. The biggest casualty was the Reboot of The Games Matrix stalling on Episode 4 out of 5, which really trampled on the 4th December anniversary. Still 2016 did have a lot of new material and plenty of milestones to boast about. Season Five was finally complete after 10 and a half long years, give or take 4-5 *cough*. Caretaker's Reboot was finished after a just as embarrassingly long six years. Reboot Season One grew from a measly on/off project to a growing healthy season like Five before it, with only eight episodes to go. The stray Monkey Island reboot gaps were filled in. Until my life crapped on me, The Games Matrix was coming along swimmingly and I was very pleased with it. Though to be fair, even with the a few lines every other day writing speed of episode 4 in December, Fourboding stomps on the original Games Matrix effortlessly and it's the weakest part.
Every year I pick a number of (full) episodes to aim for and write a Wish List with double the amount so there's flexibility. 2016's looks pretty sweet compared to 2015. Yeah 2015 definitely won on the word count front, and omg it had Dark Clouds, Closure and Untitled; three episodes I never thought I'd be able to write. Still though, the amount of ticks did make me feel a little better. I thought I'd get up to Upendi and I was only one episode off. 3/5 of The Games Matrix is still better than none. The best one is the Caretaker Part 3 box, labelled with asterisk's to tell me not to count it since it's not a full episode, only it ended up being so what with me finishing the whole thing a few months ago. That I plan to release next after The Games Matrix, or just next if the saga stalls again.
On that note, Fourboding got there in the end. Yeah I know, not that interesting news since I've done nothing but complain about it being the weakest entry. That is because the saga is a ripoff of something else, even with the reboot that hasn't changed, and Fourboding's source material was mostly unusable. I did eventually find a way to make some of the source material work for the episode, which helped get me in the mood to continue it, albeit slowly. On the bright side because of this the fifth and final part of the saga's had one hell of a head start. Fourboding didn't turn out as badly as I imagined, so please don't be put off by my complaining. Unless you're a newish reader that hasn't reached Season Three yet, heh. If you are, avoid, spoilers and plenty of them dwell inside.
Reboot Season Three, Episode 16: Fourboding
"Demon²" has been added to "Marill Re-Reads Season One".
New banner for Upendi added to the homepage.
All the usual History pages have been up to date with the new episode's release.